Dare To Tri

117 days until my first triathlon, and I’m already starting to get nervous!  I have been working out, following the training plan, and feeling stronger every day.  I feel like I have really hit my stride in the past week.  I’m excited to get up every morning and get another healthy day under my belt.  I have been tracking my calories and cooking some delicious food, not feeling deprived at all. 

 

What I’m struggling with is comparisons.  I know that no matter how hard I train, I’m not going to be at the level of the other triathletes only 117 days from now.  I’m probably not even going to be close.  My goal at this point is just to run the race within myself and finish the race.  I just get frustrated knowing what I’ve done to my body, knowing that if I had just taken care of myself for the past 29 years, I could have the body the other triathletes will surely have.

I know I should accept myself and just be happy that I’m making positive changes.  I just can’t help but compare myself to others.  I know it’s going to be both a physical and mental battle for me on race day.  This entire weight loss journey is a fight against self-doubt, a fight to make myself believe that I have the inner strength to become the person I want to be.  My weight has held me back for far too long.  The body I have right now is the body I have right now.  I’m trying to accept that fact.

Setting aside my doubts, I am excited about how different things will be when I reach my weight loss goal.  I know I will be stronger after having gone through this journey.  Until then, I’m just going to keep taking it one day at a time.