A Year of Weigh-Ins: Week 6

So I'm pretty sure my scale is broken.  And I'm not just saying that because it gave me a number I didn't like.  I mean, literally, I think my scale is broken.  This week has been pretty good for me as far as eating goes.  I've been eating breakfast, which is a big step for me.  I also got snowed in and couldn't go to the store, so that actually helped me stay on track!  I still feel like I'm not all-in, though.  I feel like I'm just phoning it in most days.  I'm off the rails some days and then sometimes I eat healthy all day and go to bed feeling accomplished.

When I stepped on the scale this morning, I expected a little bit of a loss.  The number I got...305.2.  What?!  I haven't seen a number that high in over a year, and there is really no reason I would have gained almost 4 pounds this week.  So I got off, made sure the scale was zeroed out and stepped on again.  This time I got 291.4.  Somehow I managed to lose 14 pounds in less than 20 seconds!  I checked the scale, made sure it was level and tried again.  306!  Okay.  One last time on the scale.  284!

I have no idea why it is being crazy.  Maybe replacing the batteries will help or maybe I just need a new scale.  So there is no real weigh-in for this week.  I'll figure out my scale problem by next week because I am still committed to doing a year of weigh-ins.

A Year of Weigh-Ins: Week 5

Last Week's Weight: 303.2
This Week's Weight: 301.6

I am happy that I lost a couple of pounds this week, but I am tired of yo-yoing back and forth.  I need to get it in gear.  I am just having a lot of trouble staying consistent.  One day I will do great and the next I will binge on sugar and eat double the calories I was planning on eating.  I know I am going to be extremely busy with work this week, so it's going to be a real test for me to stay on track.

A Year of Weigh-Ins: Week 4

The week was going great until Thursday.  I walked every day and was tracking and staying under my calories.  I feel like I've been just struggling along for the last few weeks trying to get into a healthy frame of mind, and early last week I felt like I was finally getting into the groove.  Then Thursday came around.  I ran out of food and needed to go to the grocery store.  I fell back into my old habit of not eating breakfast or lunch and I let myself get too hungry.  Then I didn't have any food in the house.  My intention was to go to the store, but I ended up getting fast food.  Then I just kept eating all the way through the weekend.  Once I get into this cycle of binging, it's like I just can't get out of it.

I promised myself that, good or bad, I was going to weigh in every week.  I really didn't want to see the number this weekend after a horrible weekend of eating, but I know that I need to see what I'm doing to myself.  I can't just pretend that I'm not doing any damage to myself.  So, of course, the number was bad.  I'm basically back to Square 1.  But I know what works.  I know that this isn't going to work unless I really focus on eating throughout the day.  I'm really going to strive for that all week.

Starting Weight: 312.0

Last Week's Weight: 298.2
Today's Weight: 303.2

I'm not giving up this time!

A Year of Weigh-Ins: Week 3

I'm very happy with the weigh-in today!  I still need to work on eating throughout the day, but I did so much better with it this week than I have been.

Starting Weight: 312.0

Last Week's Weight: 302.0
Today's Weight: 298.2

Weight Loss This Week:  3.8 pounds!  Woo hoo!

I never want to see the 300s again, so I'm going to make this a great week!

Finally

I woke up actually feeling hopeful today, more hopeful than I have felt in a long time!  Yesterday was the first day in I don't know how long that I didn't eat any sugar!  I feel like I just needed that one day to break the chain.  Now I feel like I might be able to actually get somewhere.

A Year of Weigh-Ins: Week 2

Starting Weight: 312.0

Week 1 Weight: 300.2
Week 2 Weight: 302.0

This Week: +1.8 pounds

I knew this weigh-in would be a bad one because I didn't do anything I planned to this week.  I ate whatever I wanted and I continued to binge eat sugar.  I really need to snap out of this funk.  Every night I plan to start fresh in the morning, and every day something happens that derails me.  I really need to focus on eating throughout the day instead of letting myself get too hungry. 

I know I can be successful if I can just eat like a normal person instead of going long periods with no food and then stuffing myself with horrible food.  When I get too hungry, that's when I eat way too much, and the food I eat is never good for me.  Then I feel horrible about binging, sleep badly and wake up feeling too sick to even think about eating breakfast and the cycle begins again.  I wait until I'm overly hungry and then binge.  I feel like I'm in a never-ending circle.  I'm going to make this a better week.  I have to make this a better week.

A Year of Weigh-Ins: Week 1

Highest Weight: 312.0
Week 1 Weight: 300.2

To make myself accountable and keep myself from turning off that part of my brain that actually wants me to do well at this whole healthy living thing, I have made a promise.  I'm going to weigh in every single week for the rest of the year, no matter what the number is.

I know that getting healthy isn't about defining yourself by a number on a scale.  I'm going to try not to live or die by the number I see on the scale each week.  I even thought about not weighing myself at all and just taking measurements once a month or so.  But, ultimately, I'm trying to figure out what's going to work for me this time when it hasn't worked for me before.  Weighing myself once a week has always been more motivational to me than a detriment.  Knowing that on Monday I'm going to have to step on that scale and post the number has kept more than a few weekend binges at bay.  Where I have run into trouble in the past is when I start obsessing about the number, weighing myself at least once a day and sometimes multiple times a day hoping for a better result.  Then whatever that number is dictates how I feel about myself that day.  I will no longer let my self-worth be attached to a number on the scale.